It is Monday morning and guess where I am? Home.....enduring a full blown pain flair....sigh. After nearly two and a half weeks of feeling somewhat normal health wise, I awakened about four o'clock this morning with pain so deep within my muscles I wondered if I could even get out of bed and crawl to the bathroom! Of course, I was eventually able to shower, dress and head to work. Why? Well, I have morning hallway duty every morning with the first and second graders ( and most of the time the third graders since that duty person is always late but that's another tale). And because I am an optimist, I like to hope that maybe after I've moved around some my body will loosen up and the pain will ease. Not today apparently.
The weird thing is not only am I in pain, I have a sense of anticipation! Because I know God has something to teach me through my fibromyalgia, I'm wondering what part of the lesson might be revealed today. Crazy I know but don't you agree anticipating something wonderful is much better than waiting for the other shoe to drop so to speak? I know I am not suffering alone because the Maker and Creator of all things is with me.....He really is....read back through my previous blog entries and you'll know why I believe that with all my heart.
Do you remember my three goals for 2013? Quick refresher.....I am going to write for the blog more....check,work on my Tangled drawings more...again, check, and most importantly, read all the way through the Bible along with my friend Melissa. That gets a check also! One thing I've noticed about the folks in Genesis and Exodus is they have no problem believing and accepting God's spiritual, and sometimes physical, presence in their day to day lives. Believers today seem to think those things no longer happen or at least no one talks about it happening.
I choose to believe that God is as powerful today as He's always been and that He can do whatever He wants. That is why I know He hears my prayers, He knows my pain, He shares my joy.My problem has always been trying to do everything for and by myself so as not to "bother" God. And maybe that is why He has allowed this debilitating pain to be a part of my existence. I cannot do everything for myself anymore and must humble my proud heart to allow God to do what He needs to do.
Could that be my lesson today? If it is then let me get out of the way and let my Loving God do what He needs to do with me. And God? Thank you.
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Monday, February 4, 2013
Sunday, January 6, 2013
New Year, New Me?
Nearly a week into the New Year and I am finally feeling better. I spent the entire Christmas break down with some sort of flu....lest you think "awww poor thing".....it was really the best time for me to be sick. Why you might ask? Because I didn't have to take any sick days to recover silly goose!
I could migrate from bed to couch dragging my blanket and tissues with me and not worry about how many pay days would be docked from my already meager pay check. And there were loads of Christmas movies to watch....old favorites and new.....and thanks to Pandora, any type of Christmas music I wanted to listen to.
My children and I had already decided to go with a sandwiches and finger food kind of menu for Christmas Day, I didn't have to fret about cooking a big meal. Our celebration was laid back and casual.....except for all the tornado warnings and horrible weather, of course....but it was all good.
School started back this week and although our break was shorter than usual.....I was so glad to see my students again! In several classes we talked about New Year's resolutions or what our goals for this new year would be. Our younger students had some interesting ideas about what 'resolutions' meant. They were all in agreement that whatever a 'resolution' was, it happened after midnight on New Year's Eve.
Listening to the students talk about what resolutions they had or what goals they wanted to accomplish this year made me stop and think about my own goals and resolutions. I've avoided making any resolutions in the past, because my self-perception wouldn't allow me to contemplate being successful at anything. But I'm a different person now or so I like to think. So I did set some goals for myself.
For one, I want to be more consistent in writing my blog. Writing once a week is fine but it is really not enough.....because writing is therapeutic for me in so many ways.....and I always feel better about issues in my life when I've written about them.....can we not conclude writing makes me healthier? Then wouldn't it be best for my mental health to write more than once a week? To these questions I say yes! Therefore, my first goal is to write more often.
Next, I decided to make more time for my artistic side. Several years ago my best friend introduced me to Zen Tangles thinking I needed a way to release my creativity. It was one of the best things to ever happen to me! Although what I draw probably doesn't follow strict Zen Tangle guidelines, it calms me, focuses me, allows me to create images which bring me satisfaction. The image on this blog is one I drew.....and is the first one I ever sold! This year I want to be able to express myself more through art.
My third goal was actually suggested to me by my friend Melissa L. Her church is doing a study which guides the participants through reading the Bible all the way through in one year. Now, I've tried before to do this very same thing and was never able to complete it. So why should this time be different? For me it is the fact that she and I decided to do this together.....to hold each other accountable so to speak....and honestly, I feel a desire to read God's Word for myself...for my own need to be closer to Him.
So far so good.....there are certainly other goals/resolutions which I should probably focus on as well....but I think these three will be more helpful to me in becoming the person I need to be....the person God wants me to be. If I can become a calmer, more expressive woman of God then the other things will follow.....don't you think?
I could migrate from bed to couch dragging my blanket and tissues with me and not worry about how many pay days would be docked from my already meager pay check. And there were loads of Christmas movies to watch....old favorites and new.....and thanks to Pandora, any type of Christmas music I wanted to listen to.
My children and I had already decided to go with a sandwiches and finger food kind of menu for Christmas Day, I didn't have to fret about cooking a big meal. Our celebration was laid back and casual.....except for all the tornado warnings and horrible weather, of course....but it was all good.
School started back this week and although our break was shorter than usual.....I was so glad to see my students again! In several classes we talked about New Year's resolutions or what our goals for this new year would be. Our younger students had some interesting ideas about what 'resolutions' meant. They were all in agreement that whatever a 'resolution' was, it happened after midnight on New Year's Eve.
Listening to the students talk about what resolutions they had or what goals they wanted to accomplish this year made me stop and think about my own goals and resolutions. I've avoided making any resolutions in the past, because my self-perception wouldn't allow me to contemplate being successful at anything. But I'm a different person now or so I like to think. So I did set some goals for myself.
For one, I want to be more consistent in writing my blog. Writing once a week is fine but it is really not enough.....because writing is therapeutic for me in so many ways.....and I always feel better about issues in my life when I've written about them.....can we not conclude writing makes me healthier? Then wouldn't it be best for my mental health to write more than once a week? To these questions I say yes! Therefore, my first goal is to write more often.
Next, I decided to make more time for my artistic side. Several years ago my best friend introduced me to Zen Tangles thinking I needed a way to release my creativity. It was one of the best things to ever happen to me! Although what I draw probably doesn't follow strict Zen Tangle guidelines, it calms me, focuses me, allows me to create images which bring me satisfaction. The image on this blog is one I drew.....and is the first one I ever sold! This year I want to be able to express myself more through art.
My third goal was actually suggested to me by my friend Melissa L. Her church is doing a study which guides the participants through reading the Bible all the way through in one year. Now, I've tried before to do this very same thing and was never able to complete it. So why should this time be different? For me it is the fact that she and I decided to do this together.....to hold each other accountable so to speak....and honestly, I feel a desire to read God's Word for myself...for my own need to be closer to Him.
So far so good.....there are certainly other goals/resolutions which I should probably focus on as well....but I think these three will be more helpful to me in becoming the person I need to be....the person God wants me to be. If I can become a calmer, more expressive woman of God then the other things will follow.....don't you think?
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