I've been away from the blog far too long and for that I apologize. Changes affect people in different ways.....for me, as long as they don't come at me all at once I can assimilate and move on. Otherwise, I am an emotional wreck and prefer to withdraw from everyone and everything...including my writing. Hence my absence.
As with many changes, these have been beyond my control and are all work related. Without going into detail, suffice it to say there have been lots of changes and they've all come at a machine gun pace....with more changes promised. Morale among the staff is at an all time low and the demands on our time have grown. Our focus has always been to meet the needs of our students academically with a lot of love and hugs thrown in. It still is.
My biggest fear is that the stress and turmoil is wreaking havoc on my health and that I will eventually lose my job because of it. I am reminding myself moment by moment that no matter what happens, God is watching out for me. He is going to meet my needs....not wants, needs. I have only to trust in His promise.
Some moments I want to rant and rave and shake my fist at the Heavens because fear of what may happen overtakes me. Then I remember, it is during times like these that miracles happen...and a sense of anticipation fills my heart and I think, "What is God going to do now?"
Rather than focusing on the negative emotions, I need to actively look for the bright moments, the silver linings, the tiny miracles.....all those instances which cause light to pierce the darkness I've pulled around myself.....my life is meant to be lived in love, understanding, peace, joy....all those emotions which bind us together rather than push us apart. Pray for me to have the strength to live that way daily.