It has been building for several days this particular pain episode I find myself enduring. I never really know what's going to trigger a flare up but once in a while I can trace the beginnings back. Such is the case with this one.
The awful stomach virus I contracted last week seems to be the origin of this flare. The pain grew gradually more intense......I kept going, trying to go to work and just deal with it. Most of the time I can manage it that way. But then there are those other times.....and this is one of those times.
Trying to sleep or rest is nigh impossible because there is so position which doesn't bring its own discomfort. Even breaking out the strongest painkillers I have bring no relief. So, this morning I dressed in the softest clothing I possess, went to school and did my daily morning duty, talked with teachers and subs about the writing prompts for today.......and am now at home, waiting for a call from my doctor about the possibilities of getting a Toradol injection today.
But You know what? In spite of all the pain, the tears that accompany the pain and the fear that the pain will never lessen.........I feel so very blessed and loved. My physical and emotional state has no bearing on God's love for me.....nor does it impact my ability to pray and praise God for all He's doing......because as long as I can think, I can pray and as long as I can pray, I can communicate with God and when I am still, I know I can hear God........and that is all good isn't it?
So today I will 'be still'.....I will reach out with my prayers to those God brings into my mind.....those who read these words know that you are being prayed for today especially.....and I will patiently wait for whatever comes next.........God is in charge and He takes care of all the details!