Well it finally happened.....the straw that broke the camel's back.....and I am officially overwhelmed. Had it occurred at any other time I might not have reacted as I did but IT did and I did. Sigh.
What? ! You may be asking. You will remember within the last 7 days I have had to buy tires for the car which was not in the budget....then my phone died and had to be replaced also not in the budget.....I had to make two unexpected trips to Dothan...think outrageous gas prices and you will know that wasn't budgeted either.......tomorrow another trip to Dothan for a visit to the rheumatologist about the out of control pain episodes.....and then "the straw."
I went online today to refill some of my most needed prescriptions.....you know, things like insulin and some other meds for my diabetes...and my all important antinflammatory. My prescriptions had disappeared from my account! Tried calling the pharmacy to see what I might have done wrong.....I tried 9 times to get through......no luck. Drove to the pharmacy after work....waited 20 minutes at the drive thru window while they tried to correct things....told me to come back in a couple of hours to pick up the meds. Gave them 3 hours before I went back.....and was told it would be another 15 minutes. No problem because they had chairs for me to sit in. 45 minutes later they called me up to the register and rang up the meds which is when I was told one of my $40 co-pays would now be $80! That my friends was the infamous straw.
Tears began streaming down my face as I asked for an explanation of the increase which I'm sure made sense to them but because of my state of mind seemed like a bunch of gibberish. I was getting double the meds at double the price BUT my money is so tightly budgeted that I had NO extra money for a double copay. I was embarrassed because of my tears and my inability to comprehend the explanation.....and I'm sure the long line of people behind me wanted me to get a grip, pay the bill and let them get their own meds!
The people who work in the pharmacy were patient and kind but their hands were tied....they had rules to be followed....I just didn't have an updated copy of those "rules." I had to put my meds on a credit card because insulin is kind of important for a diabetic.
There is no moral to this story. I haven't had time to search the Scriptures for comfort....but I will. And my prayer has been simple...."Please God help me get through this and don't let me have a wreck as I drive home while sobbing like a baby..."and I kept praying that over and over and over.
It would be so nice to have someone just hold me while I cry....just for a little while......