I sat on my porch for a while this evening and true to form my thoughts rambled from pillar to post as the saying goes. Fatigue pulls at me. One thing about these bouts with pain is the exhaustion they leave behind. One doesn't consciously think of how tiring it is to fight pain...but it is. Depending on the duration...and the intensity of the pain episode.....it takes days to recover the energy one needs to just get through an ordinary day.....thankfully, this flare up is beginning to fade. And now I try to regain some semblance of what is normal for me.
Back to sitting on the porch.....it was soothing for a while.....just sitting, watching the cars drive in and out of the complex. It can be quite busy with neighbors arriving home from wherever they've been....and sometimes leaving again.....the racket of children trying to get in those last few minutes of playing before supper and homework beckon. The weather is still quite mild...leaning more toward warm than not......one of the things I still dislike about living in the South.....seasons sliding into one another with very little change in temperature.
As I said, my thoughts rambled.....that happens a lot when I'm not quite able to physically do what I'd like....my mind goes into overdrive......which many times leads to insomnia. Anyway.....tonight, on the porch I thought about...in no particular order, bulletin board ideas, Lewie away at school, Melissa killing a poisonous snake (which she did earlier this week,) Michael and his job search, my best friend, a variation on my yummy cheese wafer recipe, wanting to own a pair of cowboy boots, how I'd look as a red head and writing a book...oh yes, and how I wish I could travel more....to places I've never seen but would like to.....places like the coast of Maine,Yosemite,England,the San Diego Zoo...and those are just the things I remember.
All that being said......Though I realize I may not live long enough to do all the things I dream of doing, I plan on enjoying all the things I am able to do......more importantly, my desire is treat all those I meet with kindness and respect and to try in my own small way, to make this world a better place. Apparently for me, normal is have lots of crazy, rambling thoughts and ideas...and to write about them.