Do you ever have days when you are simply mad at the world? Times when it seems that every aspect your life has gone completely haywire and you can't seem to find the off switch? All those negative emotions.....depression, tension, anger, worry, doubt,........seem to intensify until there seems to be no way to stop that downward spiral?
That is exactly where I am at this moment.
Why in the world would I share this? Because I know that I am NOT the only person to ever feel this way. Just as I know those of us who hit these lows, manage to find our way to our happy place eventually. Sometimes it helps to know, I am not alone in this struggle.....I'm not and neither are you.
There are those who would throw my faith in God in my face during these low times....asking where's your God now? My response is always the same......He is where He always is.....it is myself that has changed...that has moved away from my Source of strength and peace. Why do I do that????
The answer is simple......I allow myself to be distracted by my day to day struggles, choosing to deal with them on my own, letting God handle the BIG problems. And you know what happens....every single time? My day to day, seemingly insignificant problems, start piling up.....they begin occurring at a more rapid pace than I am able to deal with.....and before I know it.....they have become a "big" problem! And I have to let God handle it any way.
How much more sensible would it be to just let God deal with all my issues....moment by moment and day by day? I've never been accused of being sensible....maybe I should try it once in a while.
I know I don't enjoy this feeling of my life being out of control....of being angry over things about which I have no control. The need for a good, hard, soul cleansing cry is becoming more apparent as each moment passes........so if you will excuse me, I'm going to put myself in the ever waiting arms of my loving God and let Him wipe my tears as I draw strength and comfort from Him.