So.....here it is another day. The goal for today is to find at least one good thing in this chaos I call my life.
My daughter and I had a long overdue heart to heart.....that is my good thing today. Though I think it may have only served to confirm that her mother is out of her fricking mind!
But at least she knows now that I am trying to come to terms with the fact I don't know who or what I am.. or even what my purpose is....that my self-doubts now have me paralyzed to the point I REALLY need guidance to make it through. And she's willing to step in and help me through it.
I also realized today the only concept of "love" I know to be good and pure and honest is the love I have for my children. That knowledge is concrete in my mind and perhaps is the cornerstone I need to use to begin building who I am supposed to be.
I can only hope......and maybe that is a good place to start...with hope.