"Cast all your anxiety on Him because He cares about you." I Peter 5:7
I spent today doing just that....giving all my anxiety to God. For some reason I felt overwhelmed by so much.....and by so many different things. The surgery was 2 weeks ago and I really thought I would have felt more energy than I do......and less pain. School begins Monday and I really need to feel better than I do today!
Today for the first time, I thought to myself, "I wonder if God ever tires of my weeping and whining to Him?" And I felt guilty for being so weak, for not being able to be strong, ........and many more negative thoughts kept on coming....and I felt like I was sliding into a place I never wanted to be in again. A place where I couldn't find anything about myself to like......a place where I couldn't imagine God being able to love someone like me.
But unlike times past, I stopped myself.....because God does love me. I turned to Scripture for the comfort I felt I needed and there was I Peter 5: 7...."Cast all your anxiety on Him because He cares about you." There was the answer. No, God does not get tired of hearing me weeping and whining. It says in His Word I am to cast all my anxiety on Him. Not just a little bit once in a while....all of it!And I am to do this because He cares about me....not just sometimes....always.
I am working daily on becoming a better person.....on following God's guidance in all parts of my life. For too long I stumbled in darkness causing pain to myself and to people I love......but I'm not in that place anymore. I am content to lean on God...to wait patiently for His plan to unfold.....and to let Him love me.